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[Fear] : an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat. As strong that is of a feeling, I assure you at least one out of every three Libyans have experienced it. Maybe even three times stronger.
You might be expecting to hear what my fears are or were that you can find a motivation in what I might have been through, let me tell you what OUR fears might be. Something you, the reader might relate to.
As a society living where we do, it cannot be denied that throughout time, demanding a right, a voice is not something of ease. While there are many perks and advantages to be proud of to be of a culture like ours, as a Libyan, there are also struggles and barriers that till this day, we tend to face.
We all have these society standards that everyone is trying to meet. And while I can’t speak for everyone, I fear for the good ones to get slept on, who don’t get appreciated enough, who don’t get a chance.
I fear that some may hate being “Libyan” because they are constantly put down or are not given the opportunities some might have, because their lifestyle is hard and harsh.
I fear as a Libyan, we stay accustomed by the unnecessary mindsets we’ve carried over the years as to what is and what isn’t appropriate to say or do. Such things could hold generations back.
I fear for men who in this time and place, are so pressured to have a degree, a perfect job and to absolutely be stable and expected to never be affected or to never struggle with what they see and face everyday.
I fear for women who are having their youth stripped away from them at such a young age. Who might be weakened because they are constantly told they are females as if that should be seen as a weakness or something to be ashamed of.
But I love how going through such things, outgrew you, it humbled you, and it toughened you. I never want such circumstances to ruin what great of a person you could be. And for that I love how Libyans are one of the strongest people. How you managed to get through so much. How “We’re so soft yet rough and jungle wild when we need to be”. How unafraid we are from breaking, and how we are ready to go out of our ways to get things done.
You may fear so much, but you are getting through it. You are facing it everyday and you are doing great. You are the creator of your own existence, and for that, you are art.